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School is slowing down drastically. My graduation is approaching, and I'm scared. I don't know why... maybe it's because I'm now one step closer to becoming the people I always looked up to. Soon, I will be on my own, feeding my own family... guiding my own children in their life. Yet, I'm scared to leave high school. I will miss all my friends. I've grown up with these people... been around them my whole life... and now we will separate and probably not talk to each other ever again. It's depressing. I just hope I can stay in contact with them. Even if our lives separate us physically... we can still communicate through internet and phone.

Sorry... it's just hard to grasp the fact that my last year of high school is coming to a close. Soon, I'll be in college... then to basic training... then back to college for the next 6 years. Yes, I am going to basic training (I hope). I have not yet sworn in, but I hope so sometime this summer. I'm joining the Air Force National Guard. They will pay my tuition 100% once I graduate Basic Training. I hope to be leaving in January of 2009 and return back home by May of 2009. That is if everything goes well. It will help me and my family out greatly if I could get my college tuition for free, plus some money on the side. I think it would be good. Heck, I may enjoy it so much I would stay in the forces and continue until my 20 years are up and then retire. Until that, I will keep my future with an open mind.

I talked with my grandma today and she told me that I sounded different. I sounded more mature, more grown up. It's scary to hear that from your own grandmother. The very grandmother you would always ask for art advice (If you have one who is an artist). I am happy she said that, but now that think about it, I'm scared to grow up. Not many people put this much thought, but it is still scary. Yea I'm a wimp... all well... >_<;;

In other news... I think my drawing activity is slowly returning. I haven't draw anything in like... a month. I just drew something today and I want to ink it out and change it up on the computer. Hopefully, I'll get around to that sometime before Senior Prom this weekend. My weekend is going to be so busy. I have senior prom from 7:30pm - 11:30pm and then Post prom from Midnight to about 5:30am.....I am gonna die. I have three tests this coming week. A math final (2 parts) and an Anatomy Lab test (which is tomorrow). I need to do good on this test, because if I don't... my grade is going to go down the tubes like no other.

soooo...............

/sigh